Today is january 6th. A new year is in front of us, a blank page ready to be written.
But before I turn my focus completely on this new and fresh year, I want to use the occation to reflect a little bit on the year that have just passed. Around new years, I always get a bit melancholic and thoughtful, so this is a good time to catch up and afterwards move on.
First I’ll try to make a small summary. Therefore, a (more or less random) list of things I did in 2018:
Decided to make an anti-stress zine
Been stressed about making an anti-stress zine
Found complete and overwhelming calmness in nature and made a goal to go to the countryside once a week
Didn't complete that goal at all
Moved three times
Been ”in between homes” during the summer, and in that occation lived 8 different places, and moved back and forth between them 25 times
Had the majority of my belongings stored from july to december
In that occation discovered minimalism and been very relieved about the small amount of things around me
Cut my hair
Been rich and then broke
Learned that I cannot be in a house alone at night without being really scared (only houses freak me out, apartments are ok)
Became a vegetarian
Fixed a small scale life crisis by reading Tove Jansson books
Was in Norway for the first time
Decided to go into climate change politics after watching Greta Thunbergs speech at COP24
About the stress. First of all, I started out the year 2018 on a small island in the south of Portugal, a trip I went on partly as a reaction to major stress in the end of 2017. I experienced sort of a burnout, and just only made it to the end of dec 17’, so I could get myself to Portugal and try to do some VACATION and anti-stimulating, non-working time. I had my phone on flight mode most of the time. I zoned out and was SO happy about this trip that was much needed.
But as I am a time optimistic person, I soon started to take on more ambitions of things I could do at the same time, than I actually could. I don’t want to say that I took on too much work, because it’s the summary of things that makes me stressed. I mean that often it’s not the work in itself that makes me stressed, but all the things I ALSO want to do. Like being a good friend with lots of time to chill, spend time with my family, visit my good friends who lives in the other end of the country, have me-time in nature, swim everyday, work out, make proper food, clean my room, teach art once a week, do coffee appointments, attend exhibitions and concerts, be active in politics, updated about the world situation, learn french, go to the cinema, go to fleamarkets to find treasures, help my friends with practical stuff, etc. etc. etc. I bet that you all know this constant not-enough-time-feeling. It’ doing no good for you - for us - for me - at all.
I actually want to be a chill person, and one of the reasons that I want to be self-employed is that I appreciate freedom A LOT. Basically my philosphy is that I’d rather work less, and live on a low economy without materialistic needs, than have a high need for income every month, because of rent and the need/choice to buy expensive stuff.
BUT I THINK THAT I MIGHT BE A WORKAHOLIC.
I love to work with what I work with. And I feel very, very lucky to be able to say that.
So where does this leave me? I don’t know actually. I think this is a classic dilemma. I also feel like it’s kind of a luxury problem? I love doing what I do so much that I get stressed? How bad can that be? And isn’t it just about finding some self discipline and priority/planning skills, accept that you can’t do everything you want, and then get it together? I have to admit that I didn’t get much wiser about this in 2018. So let’s give it another shot in 2019.
About my moving situation. It started in the spring, with me thinking that I wanted to try someting new, and therefore moved from my old apartment, where I’ve lived basically (besides the one year where I was living in Copenhagen) since I was 18 (27 now).
I didn’t really knew where to go though, so I storaged the majority of my belongings, while I waited for life to show me a direction. I am a strong believer in the flow of life. I lived in my friends houses and apartments during the summer, while they were on vacation. By october I moved into a 15 m2 room, and I felt so relieved and simple, with not having to deal with other things than just the necessary, since the majority of my things were still at the storage room. I found a bed and a dresser in the street, that were going to be thrown out anyways, bought two chairs and some carpets secondhand, made a table out of a wood plate and two wooden legs (really don’t know the correct word in english, sorry) and then I was ready.
It was a really good and simple time, but I don’t live there anymore, since I was so lucky that I got the chance to move into my dream PALACE by january 1st 2019. Which means: right now in this very moment. Probably more about this place will come later. Much, much more.
Here’s a small list with people who’ve inspired me in 2018:
Tove Jansson : for helping me out of a crisis I had during summer, where I lost a friend of mine, didn’t have a home and didn’t like the city after returning from the countryside. I read four of her books in a row, and they slowly comforted me back to life, with their calm, light and simple atmosphere. The descriptions of nature, and the simple joys in life in the Moomin books, all of these simple souls living their weird, little lifes and being OK with it, just makes me calm. It’s hard to describe why it helped me so much, but I guess I just sometimes feel like a Moomin character in some way. My favourite book by Tove is the Sculptor’s Daughter, a small book based on her childhood memories. The way she sees and approaches life is just amazing, and since both of her parents are artists, mother being an illustrator, father being a sculptor, it’s filled with an artistic atmosphere.
Marlee Grace : Instagram has led me to many inspiring people, one of them being Marlee Grace. I’ve been very inspired by her approach to work/life balance within creative work fields, since it’s often a blurry line that separates work from life, when you are an artist. I bought her small zine “How to not always be working” (that has now turned into a book), and it made me think quite a lot of this subject, like fx. how to identify healthy boundaries within my creative/work practise, so I don’t burn out. It was also the inspiration behind my own zine, that I made aftwerwards: “Catalogue of stress relieving activities”. Another zine of hers is called: “how a photo and video-sharing social networking service gave me my best friends, true love, a beautiful career, and made me want to die“. Go check her out, if something in that sentence made you smile, cry or both.
Rebecca : is my beloved partner-in-crime in my NUMBER ONE favourite thing/project I did+started in 2018; Tegneklubben (english: the drawing club). We’ve established a community for drawing, where we make events, and invite people to come and draw together, at different places around the city. It’s been so amazing, inspiring, and just unbelievable nice how it all turned out. We invite everyone who has an interest in using two hours drawing, and people just embraced the concept so much, that it warms the very inner places of my heart. Everyone comes. Young, old, professionals, amateurs, boys, girls. It’s so uplifting, and we are so ready to create many more events in 2019!
Everyone who attended a Tegneklub event!
Greta Thunberg for doing the best speech ever about climate change at COP24 in Poland. For being the coolest 15 year old girl, who, in the calmest, coolest, and yet SO strong and serious tone, with no mercy, teaches us the tough reality about the situation of the planet and the climate crisis we are facing, and not at all doing enough to prevent. Before this speech I was of course terrified and aware of the climate change, but now I have decided to go into climate change politics. We have run out of excuses and we are running out of time. The real power belongs to the people. Yes. Happy new year.
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Thanks for reading along!